I have been absent, but in my absence I have become obsessed with the new CD's from Jason Mraz and Alanis Morrissette. In particular, Alanis (yes, we are on a first name basis) has a song called "Incomplete" that has resonated deeply with the past few months of my life. So as a first step to re-entry into the blogosphere, here is a poetic snapshot into the struggle that has kept me silent for so long:

One day
I'll find relief
I'll be arrived
And I'll be friend to my friends who know how to be friends
One day
I'll be at peace
I'll be enlightened
and I'll be married with children and maybe adopt
One day
I will be healed
I will gather my wounds forge the end of tragic comedy

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
of being forever incomplete

One day
my mind will retreat
And I'll know God
And I'll be constantly one with her night dusk and day
One day
I'll be secure
Like the women I see on their thirtieth anniversaries

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
of being forever incomplete

Ever unfolding
Ever expanding
Ever adventurous
And torturous
And never done

One day I will speak freely
I'll be less afraid
And measured outside of my poems and lyrics and art
One day I will be faith-filled
I'll be trusting and spacious authentic and grounded and home

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
of being forever incomplete