The last month or two I have been carrying a huge burden. Simple questions really, but extremely overwhelming for me. Selling a house, moving to a new town, starting grad school, finding a new home, figuring out how to make my job part time in another city, buying a new car, ahh...the list itself stresses me out.
Last week I was doing my weight training day at the gym. I worked out all my muscles just fine, but then I got to my shoulders and I could not get through 5 reps without stopping. Now I know there are a lot of variables at play, but I walked away feeling like I had just lived through a symbolic moment...the weight of my world has been so heavy on my shoulders that I just couldn't bear any more.
But this morning I woke up happy, actually quite joyful. I spent the last two days looking for a new home with my new roommates in my new hometown...Seattle. We found a beautiful house in Greenlake that is perfect for each of our individual needs. I now have a place to call home for the next year. I have a distraction in the planning of the move to keep me from dwelling on the more pressing questions, such as...what the hell am I thinking moving to Seattle and becoming a student again? Just checking off that one item from my overwhelming To Do list has helped me feel free again to dream of a new life in Seattle.
Pictures coming soon!
