This has been a month of full of newness and life for me. It began with a 10 minute eye surgery that corrected my vision forever. Stunning, amazing, unbelievable...how is that everyone doesn't get LASIK?!? That was actually the beginning of the most anxious filled three weeks of school yet, but this is a post about life. So.
Next up was a funeral for my twenties in order to create the space I needed to celebrate my 30th birthday! Yes, a funeral, and it was beautiful, holy, an amazing blessing to mourn the heartache of the past decade with my dear friends. My 30th birthday was such a great day. There were phone calls and lunch with a friend and getting highlights in my hair, and then a surprise dinner with friends. So special.
There were two births in the Spice Girl group. Nixon born the end of February and Simon born two weeks ago. Congratulations Tira and Holly! Can't wait to meet you new little boys!
And in true Mars Hill fashion, there was emotional turmoil and wrestling that has led to much life within me. I have been grappling with the idea of leaning into the person I was created to be. My automatic reaction is to shy away, to find comfort in the corner, but I have really been challenging myself to take up some space in life, and to be okay with it. The result, honestly, seems to lead to more heart ache right now, but it is the kind of heartache that is bittersweet; the kind that even as I am sitting in the shit of my life feels a little hopeful because I keep getting whiffs of blossoms. There is more life to come.
So, farewell March. You have been good to me, and I thank you for the blessings that I will forever treasure!
